From: Covenant@yabbs
To: all@yabbs
Subject: part last
Date: Sat Jul  2 04:10:38 1994

He died alone.  I don't care what anyone says.  We were there, his
loved ones, but he died alone.
That's no way to die:  covered in mud, helpless, and in pain. 
I realized this as I carried my grandfather's coffin 5 years later.
He refused all treatments towards the end.  I thought he was crazy.  Now I
wonder if he was.  He held my little cousin in his arms and smiled.  Perhaps
I know now why.  I didn't cry at his funeral.  I smiled.  He died with pain
and that hurts me to no end.  But at least he knew I loved him.  I hope.
I did and I almost told him.  'Course he was just like me.  Hopefully he
can see in him what I saw.  An old friend that I took for granted who left
me and took alot.  I don't forget.  Even though his face fades everyday.