From: Natalie@yabbs
To: all@yabbs
Subject: another one
Date: Tue Jun 28 20:18:46 1994

the sun is shining
but it's thundering
a shudder runs up my spine
my insides churn
this is the weather i hate
it's so humid
my hair is stuck to my face
of course the hour long bath
that i took didn't help
it's tangled and all i did was
look at it
i want to talk to someone
but that someone isn't here
and i don't know what i
want to do
i look around my room
it is so childinsh
the room of the me of a year ago
not the room of me now
but i don't want to grow up
i want to be eight again
just before i got cooties
before i had no friends
when i was happy
when i was unashamed
when i was purely me
and not the me that others made
i admit to being a victim of society
but i'm not going to whine
i am stating a fact
i am not going to blame my parents
i am going to blame myself
i got myself into this mess
and i can get myself out of it

(hmmm....i dunno why i've been so inspired (?) lately...this one, i 
just starting stringing together random thoughts i was having...)

natalie