From: pbj@yabbs
To: pbj@yabbs
Subject: someone else
Date: Tue Aug 16 03:26:12 1994

well here is some of my catalyst of my shitty mood

thank the non-existent god for trent

   Something I Can Never Have

i still recall the taste of my tears
echoing your voicejust like the riging in my ears
my favorite dreams of you still wash ashore
scraping through my head `til i don't want to sleep any more
come on tell me
make this all go away
you make this all go away
i'm down to just one thing 
and i'm starting to scare myself
make this all go away
you make this all go away
i just want something
i just want something i can never have
you always were the one to show me how
back then i couldn't do all the things i can do now
this thing is slowly taking me apart
grey would be the color if i had a heart

i just want something i can never have
in this place it seems like such a shame
though it all looks different now
i know it's all still the same
everywhere i look you're all i see
just a fading reminder of who i used to be
come on tell me
make this all go away
you make it all go away
i'm down to just one thing
and i'm starting to scare myself
make this all go away
i just want something i can never have
i just want something i can never have
think i know what you meant
that night on my bed
still picking at this scab
i wish you were dead
your sweat and perry ellis    (or in this case patchuli)
just stains on my sheets

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thank the non-existent god for trent reznor and all the shits that put him 
through his hell and mine...

pbj