From: "Gary Britt" 

Hi Bill,

I'm sorry to hear that you having such a tough time.  Anybody can be broke
at some point or points in their life.  Its nothing to be ashamed of.  The
only shame is giving up.  If you don't give up, you can and will have a
good and prosperous life in just a few years or less.  Hang on to a belief
and faith in your ultimate success and work hard at achieving that which
you define as success.  You will succeed if you do.

Nothing helps getting over a woman better than another woman.  I'm sure
that's the last thought on your mind at the moment, but you don't have to
fall in love immediately, but do try not to be alone.  Make the effort
necessary to get up off the couch and get out there and find one or more
face to face friends to share your life with, especially some single female
friend to share some of your life with.  It can be just friends, doesn't
need to be a big love affair.  You will likely have to force yourself at
first to do this, but do it.  Its worth it.

If going back to your old job is what you really want to do, there's
nothing wrong with that.  If it isn't, then take this as your opportunity
to do what you really want to do with your life.  The more you own the more
it owns you.  You may be at the most free point in your life in quite a
while.  Look upon that freedom as an opportunity to make of your life
whatever you want it to be.

Finally, absolutely go see a doctor if you haven't already and get on meds
that make you feel better.  If you have or had recently suicidal thoughts
then you absolutely need proper medication.  Not all -anti-depressants work
the same way for the same person.  If the doctor gives you something and it
doesn't start helping your mood real fast, ask the doctor to try something
else.

My wife went through a depression that needed medical treatment after her
mother passed away about 10 years ago.  It took a couple of tries to find
the right meds but once she got the right ones it saved her life literally.
Its a medical condition and needs immediate treatment.  There is no shame
in treating a medical condition.  The shame would be in not doing so.

Don't sit in an apartment with no furniture.  Go out and buy something,
even if you have to go in debt to buy it.  That new sofa or bedroom set and
the debt you owe on it is the kind of commitment to your future life that a
person thinking of suicide doesn't make.   They seek to simplify and order
their lives neatly so no problems are left after their suicide.  Don't be
that person.

Hang in there.  There is always hope where there is life.

Gary

"Bill Lucy"  wrote in message
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> I'm writing this because I want all of you to know what's currently
> going on in my life.
>
> BTW, it's not good.
>
> For a bit over a year, I've been unsuccessfully pursuing a divorce with
> Nancy. My attorney actually prepared a marital settlement agreement over
> a year ago. But she refused to agree to it. Fast forward, and now she is
> agreeing to what is essentially the same agreement drafted in November
> of 2004.  We had also agreed to sell our home, but after a sale
> fell through, Nancy decided to stay, and we agreed to a price which she
> would pay for my interest. The price was agreed to in August, a closing
> date was scheduled for last Friday (I know -- 4 months!), but that fell
> through. 
>
> In addition, I have been in a relationship with a woman with whom I fell
> way too far in love, AND have attempted to start a financial planning
> business. Both have failed, and the financial cost to me has been
> drastic. Because of a move, I can't follow the original
> business/marketing plan I had drafted. I spent quite a bit of money in
> this (stupid me), but there has been very little reciprocity on her
> part. In reality, I feel treated as little more than a slave.
>
> I've been continuing an on-line course to help me obtain my
> certification as a financial planner (CFP), and I'm about 2/3 of the way
> through (the current final exam in Income Tax Planning is a bear).
>
> So...
>
> I'm leaving the relationship as of tomorrow (Tuesday). I'm moving back
> to Illinois with the prospect of a job similar to what I was doing for
> the State of Illinois, working under contract as a trainer in
> investments. I don't even know if that will work out, but I need to get
> away from the place I'm in now.
>
> I'm pretty much broke, but not broken. I did for a time recently
> consider suicide. But I am blessed with family and friends who have
> committed to help me through this bad time.
>
> I'm telling you all this because many of us here have shared our
> stories, albeit perhaps not in this amount of detail.
>
> I'm looking for support. You can call me at (218)205-5784 or email me at
> lucyandi()spamcop)(net.
>

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