Hi, Quinn.

--- Quinn Tyler Jackson  wrote:

> I'll recover from this ... it's the feeling that sucks more than
> the actual events.

Par for the course.
 
> What sucks the most is allowing it eat at me. I can't shake the
> feeling that a "real" writer doesn't let this kind of fecal matter
> in the emotional door.

How can you be a "real" writer if such fecal matter doesn't affect
you?  We write -- in part -- to be evocative, but how can you invoke
in others what you yourself don't feel?

> I look at bigger tragedies (insert many *real* sob stories here --
> mine and others' -- the big stuff) and say, "This crap is trivial,
> Quinn -- don't be such a drama queen. Don't sweat such small
> stuff."

Well, yeah, but at some level it must be much less trivial than
appears prima facie.
 
> But then I realize ... hell, I am more sensitive than I allowed
> myself
> to admit in the past. This writing thing ... was about ME and my
> EGO,
> and I drew a line in the sand, daring idiots to cross it ... and
> when
> they did ... I whined like a two-year-old about it. How utterly
> gauche of me.

No, no, no!  You've got that all bassackwards.  You didn't draw a
line in the sand, you build a sand castle, and some cretin came along
and gave it a kick.  Naturally you feel frustrated at the ruination
of a labor of love.  And you certainly did not invite that cretin to
ruin it except implicitly by having created a work he obviously does
not have the capacity to create himself.  Of course you could have
saved yourself the anguish by not having created it in the first
place, but you are not responsible for the petulant angers of the
hypersensitive and the snivelers.  You are responsible only for the
content of your work.  Not for their reaction to it.

=====
Fear of corrupting the mind of the younger generation is 
the loftiest of cowardice. --Holbrook Jackson

>From the Lair of Fang-Face DreamWeaver
and The Encyclopedia Michael Nellis
http://www.angelfire.com/scifi/dreamweaver/index.html

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