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From: Dustin 
Newsgroups: alt.politics.scorched-earth
Subject: Re: My failing hard drive!
Date: Wed, 10 Sep 2014 04:25:39 +0000 (UTC)
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~BD~  wrote in
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> Phew! No problem installing the new hard drive. The PC is up and
> running and I am now in process of restoring my back-up (I hope!).

More responsive on a good HD isn't it? *smug grin* Isn't taking
nearly as long to bootup to a usable desktop now, eh? Laughing...

And to think, your buddy (pooh) that you think? is better at this
than me told you that drive was okay and you should have just ignored
me...

So what changed your mind then? I know it's not the attitude I have
with you. I know you don't like me. I know you never have, although I
honestly have changed.. I don't know how else I could prove that to
you. I haven't written viruses in nearly fifteen years David...

I know alot of the things I did were wrong and I am paying for it, in
ways you can't possibly understand. G. Morgan tried to help you once
when he told you as a result of my prior activities, I can't acquire
the position OG38 (whichever it is)'s great grandson can. It has
little to do with skill; more to do with the immature things I chose
to do with the knowledge I have nearly fifteen years ago.

It hurts (a pain you can't imagine) to know that no matter what
degrees/certs I have, due to some prior dumb moves, *I* can't get the
jobs where the seven figures offers come into mind, I seriously doubt
the feds would offer me that much money.

I probably have the knowledge to compete well with his great
grandson, but the blacklisting is real and it's never going to go
away. I ####ed myself a long time ago, David. Nothing YOU do is ever
going to compare to what I already did to myself and my own future.

Computers is all I really wanted to do with my life...and because of
some.. bad decisions I made in my past, my chance has been taken from
me, without any possibility of getting another. I'm ####ed and I know
it. Your GOD isn't as forgiving/helpful as you and many others who
read that book think he is. I *know* he hates me too, david. I know
it. I feel it. Every day.

FTR is right when he told you I can see the writing on the wall; I
can. I know what the end result is. It's why I wrote the information
on suicide in another thread...and i'm not getting any more specific
concerning that subject than I already have.

In hindsight, I shouldn't have posted anything about it. With that
said, I know what its like from losing someone to it and ...what
those who have done it felt like prior to doing so... I relate to
them, I understand. I won't die in prison like you'd like David...

I won't be a thorn in your side much longer; and HHI will slowly fade
out, so it's a win win for you.

Don't bother emailing me. Don't waste your time trying to contact my
local authorities, either. I told you... you can't help me. There's
nothing I want from you or anyone else, except the one ####ing thing
nobody will give me in the high paying companies; a second chance.
I'm at wits end. I don't wanna do this anymore.

The signature below is from a new song by Theory of a deadman
(appropriate in my case).. It's titled World War me, if you want to
google it.

-- 
I know you tried to show me the light, I feed on the darkness
I've lost control, I'm down in a hole, I'm broken and helpless
The noose is getting tight, so tight, will I make it through the
night It's time to surrender to myself and crawl out of this hell,
the battle is in my head, there is nobody else


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