ml> deep as it had... this time, i left and i doubt that i'll ever seek
 ml> another... i already know that the love and feelings of the first real
 ml> love of my life will never surface again...

 SH>   I went through something similer to this myself, and didn't seek
 SH> another. She found me. ;)  

yeah, this one and the one major other one found me, too... both after
rough breakups... the first one was several years after my divorce... the
second several years (ie: seven) after the first...

in the case of the second, i guess i was just a toy that wouldn't stay in
the toybox when she was finished playing... being a toy, i finally realized
this and left her, the toybox and the house... this toy has disappeared as
far as she is concerned... she hasn't even called to find out what happened
or how my health has been and she knew that i was having health problems
when i left :(

)\/(ark