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The "Engagement" was tentative by Christmas of last year. I never knew
from one day to the next which Joanie I would wake up to. If I could
benefit her agenda, then we were engaged to be married. If she
percieved Me to be in the way of one of her "goals". like the time I
became non-existant when she thought she was going to "The Oscars"
with some guy who told her she would be the star of her own TV show.
Once she realized the guy wasn't showing up, She sweetened up again.
The guy called the next day & left a message saying his daughter was
in a car accident & died. All of which ended up being a lie. So even
as late as My last TNA appearance , when she went to the show with Me,
She was wearing the ring & saying we were engaged.

I no longer speak to Joanie. I do still love her & always will. The
problem is that the Joanie I asked to marry Me no longer exists.
Unfortunately I allowed My life to completely fall apart before being
able to accept things for what they are. Even after everything she has
done to purposely hurt Me, I was still unwilling to say anything
negative about her. But when a classy individual like Reggie Benjamin
goes way out of his way to add her to an already completed album to
help jump start her music career & she "no shows ' when he comes all
the way to L.A. with R. Kelley's voice coach to record her. He payed
to keep the studio for longer so she could still make it & she took so
much time putting on make up that she still didn't make it. I was so
embarassed & fealt so bad for Reggie. He was so gracious & said It's
OK, She can come to Chicago & do it. Problem was that the wrong person
was embarassed. She had no shame what so ever & showed no remorse. She
put Reggie through hell trying to get his album finished after
restructuring things for her benefit. She refused to do the publicity
for the album now that she was added to it & given equal share in it's
profits. She is lucky that she's not dealing with a major record label
or she would be sued & she would lose. When you do an album , You are
commited to the promotion of it. I know this comes off as bitter, but
I wonder how many more people she will use and throw away to get what
she wants. Reggie Benjamin is a wonderful human being & a great
musician , who needs no one on his album for it to be a success. His
song "Ride" is already #4 on the Billboard dance charts. That's
inspite of all the delays in the release of the album.

It is totally not My style to write something like this. I could write
a whole lot worse & it would be 100% true.

I hope she realizes that there are consequences for walking all over
people & treating them like shit. Connie was extremely good to her &
worked hard on her website. She invited Connie to L.A. & then when
Connie was supposed to come, Joanie dissed her. I mean She invited
Connie. It wasn't like Connie just invited herself.

Connie came to L.A. and we hung out & went to dinner instead. 

To answer the question about what I look for in a woman. After what I
have gone through over the last 18 months, I don't even want to think
about a woman in the romantic sense. Sex is the last thing on My mind.
The pain associated with relationships is to much to risk experiencing
again anytime soon.

The question was not too personal. I hope the answer isn't either.

Take care,
Sean


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