Seems all I can do these days is blubber..no reason, other than to say I 
don't feel well at all. I have discovered a lump of sorts in my neck area and 
saw a doctor that said,no to worry, most of these are bening tumors or 
cysts..I being a nurse would have said the very same thing to anyone with the 
same worry..and I swore I wouldn't worry till I know if there were something 
tangable to worry about....it works when I'm around others too. but when I.m 
alone, and I often am, I get to thinking too much..I don't have little ones 
with which to bargin with god to see grown. Grandchildren are pretty well 
grown as well and there is no one dependent upon my being here..Oh don't get 
me wronf, I am not afraid of dying, that's the easy part. it's the manner in 
which this must be accomplished..the worry to my family, the trouble and such 
that this will spread throughout all I know. I have no idea why I am telling 
you such things, God only knows you have enough to deal with and I hope you 
will forgive me this once. I just think it may help to share. They say a 
problem shared is half a problem..Not that either one of us can do a darn 
thing about the progression of age and illness. I think we all try to take it 
in our stride. But sometimes it gets to be almost too much..Okay, I'm done..I 
will not mention it again..thanks for listning..
     Thanks you too for the lovely comment on the velvet stockings and your 
right they do look nice in out home..my daughter was delighted to think that 
I had gone to all the trouble..they fit in nicely.
     I too have ll the old felt stockings from each childs growing years. 
some have taken them with them, those are the ones marriing and starting a 
home of their own and just must have something of home to sort of germinate 
the feeling of home in their own homes..others. mostly the boys and declined 
to take there's saying to just throw them out. Mothers hang on the the most 
rediclous things....but I think they'd be disappointed to find out if I 
should..
     How are you feeling these days..have you about worn yourself out 
creating for the Holidays..I have sent all the card, noted the incoming  
ones, bought all the presents and stocked for the Christmas Eve dinner we 
always have.. Most of my family stays home on Christmas day with their 
children. it seems such a shame to drag them away from their newly acquired 
posessions. that we decided some time ago to have out celebration on the 
Eve..it seems to take the edge off the childrens excitment also and some of 
the parents say that they can even get to sleep in to, say 6:00 oclock...
     Well Wandy, I guess I've certainly bent your ear long enough this time. 
that will teach you to tell someone you like reading their letters..HA HA
     If for some reason I don't get back to you before the Holidays, I wish 
you and yours the very best, not only for that day but for all the days to 
come..Hope you'll be feeling well so that you can enjoy the Holidays to the 
fullest..                    AAmile, My friend and thanks for listning.
If you have the chance. do read " the Christmas Box" by Richard Paul 
Evans..nice short read for the holidays.. Merry Holiday..s Bettie
--- Maximus 2.01wb
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