That is a big subject Cherlyn. I have spent my time in recovery with the 
question who is God and what does he want with me.  Well I have come to the 
conclusion that God doesn't like to leave an question un answere. The rouble 
is..am I brave enough to follow through with what He asks?
        I've been in the progam for seven years and with God grace I have not 
had a slip yet. I go through many other problems though and I have no pride 
about my time as I know completely that it is a gift for which I have done 
nothing.
        I have also come to the conclusion that God is who keeps me sober. 
All the steps either defate our egos to alow God in, or they directly bring 
us into relationship with God. I go to meetings because that is how I tell 
God that I invite his Grace into my life. I also go to learn about the 
program on an intelectual level but the Big Book does say that there will 
come a time in every alcoholic's life when he/she will have no intelectual 
defence against the first drink. That tells me that it is more important to 
be in good relation with God then it is to have the program memorized. All 
the same for the first three years I think I went to a meeting every day some 
times two or three.
--- Maximus 2.01wb
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