-=>I distinctly overheard Wendy Apgar say to Wanda Guin<=-
Wendy,
 WA> I wanted you to know that you continue to be in my
 WA> thoughts. I keep meaning to send a note, but decided
As you are in mine.  :)  Don't worry about sending notes-
I keep meaning to send some notes out to my friends, too!  The stamps
are appreciated any time.
 WA> I used much of my wallpaper samples to make envelopes
I have a lot of w/p books, so I will see about sending you some sheets.
Don't worry about sending me sheets.  You had some neat ones, but you
need them more than I do.  I just "play" with them.
 WA> saves money on the envelopes that I buy. This way
 WA> I can save those, at least until my supply of
  I think it's great to use up things, instead of spending more money
  on things before we need to.
 WA> the buttons I have in my collection, that I can do
 WA> when my stress level is as high as it is.
  I made a "gingerbread man" with a grocery sack and cotton, and used
  some of your buttons for ...buttons, and eyes.  He turned out cute,
  if I do say so myself.  I know people throughout the ages have been
  making these things, but *I* never have, and it was fun. (blush.)  I
  put him in a basket of pinecones and orange and lemon slices.  It all
  looks "Fall-ish".
 WA> More stuff...really bad memories...coming up in
Oh no... :(
 WA> therapy. There are two parts of me..the part
 WA> that wants to live and knows that I have value
 WA> and that I matter in this world and this other
 WA> part, that was programmed into me, that says I
 WA> have no value outside of sex and that I was born
 WA> for that purpose and predestined to die. Talk
Now Wendy, you *know* to listen to the first part!  You have SO much
value, and are such a friend to *many* people!  Look at the fun you
are giving the kids in your neighborhood, who are painting your car
with butterflies.  Don't you know they will always remember you, as
the nice lady who let them be a part of their lives?  You made THEM
feel worthy and of value and good enough and talented to paint your
car.  I know you taught them things, while you were helping them.
When they see your car out and about, they have pride that THEY had
a part in it!
And you have made so many friends through the computer.  I have too!
You've had so many hints and suggestions for all of us!  Also, there
is just no telling how many people in Russia you've helped to know
Christ, by sending me cancelled stamps!  YOU have an influence on
people in another country!  God needs you and is working through you
to reach many more people than you'll ever know.  You matter, very much!!
You were not born just for sex.  Sex in the right context is a good
thing.  But you were not created or born just for that.  You are not
worthless, or cheap or a "nothing".  Our bodies have value.  Even the
sexual (reproductive) parts.
 WA> about a twisting of what the Bible says! Anyway
 WA> there are days when that is really hard to struggle
 WA> through. 
I know you have a hard struggle some days.  I wish I could help you
in some way.  I hate that you have to hurt so much, physically as well
as emotionally.
 WA> I haven't done anything self-destructive though..other
I'm proud of you!  That's progress, right?
 WA> than eat and I recognize that is not good for me
 WA> either. I need to find those things that are good
 WA> for  me to eat.
Well, I know what's good for me, but I WANT what's bad for me...I have
a problem with my weight, too. :(
 WA> Anyway, that is the latest. I'm glad we are friends.
 WA> I'm glad I have so many other friends! Especially
 WA> now. It cheers me.
I'm glad we are friends, too!  I will be putting something in the mail
to you (if I can get to the post office!) next week.
 WA> ... This hug is especially for Wanda Guin
Thank you, you are so sweet...:)
I am getting excited for Christmas, and I'm running things through my
mind of what all to do.  Is it too early to decorate?? :)  I am getting
the things ready for the exchanges!
take care,
Wanda
... I'm not fat just horizontally disproportionate
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