>  But when does the Joy of living kick back in?  That's what I want to
 >  know. (GRIN)   (As in the Joy of living being the theme of AA's twelve
 >  steps as quoted in step 12 of the 12 and 12.)
Hi Matrika. I replied to this a few weeks ago, but I've been using a new mail
reader and it's possible that I lost some of my replies. So...if you never 
ot
an answer, please accept my apoligy!
Anyway, when does the *joy* kick in? Well, it seems to come slowly...in 
ittle
bitty bites, sometimes. I know for me, I feel a little more complete, a 
ittle
more fulfilled, as I remind myself that I am making some progress in my
struggle.
I also have to keep reminding myself that I don't have to be perfect, because
I am a human being, and all human beings are imperfect. We all mess up from
time to time.
And finally, as I learn to accept myself and be comfortable with my
imperfections, I find I can relax and be more open with others...and 
urprise,
I find out that many times others will accept me just as I am.
I hope this makes *some* sense! ttyl...
 -- SPEED 2.00 [NR]: Genius is perserverence in disguise.
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