I know the light doesn't work that way.  I was being sort of funny - 
sometimes I have to or I'll cry.  I do think the light is doing 
something - I got over this in record time for me.  I also used all 
kinds of herbal, vitamin and other folk remedies - as well as an 
anti-biotic because I needed it, with spiritual remedies such as 
meditation.  But I'm sure the light and love I got from some friends 
and the prayers and love I got from others were a great help.
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I do believe prayer and meditation is the part of the program of 
recovery that is most important to me today, on a daily basis.
In many ways the other steps I've already taken except for this and the
tenth and the twelfth which are on-going.  I use the tenth in a way 
that works for me, periodically, as I feel I need it - or as my sponsor
does.  And the 12th I try to do in my daily life - but it's not a 
conscious process for me all the time, it's just the way I live now - 
or try to.  I definitely don't always succeed and that is where I tend 
to become aware of it - because I become aware of the failure and the 
disruption it makes in my serenity.  For me, it's sort of an "ought oh,
I f***ed up good this time" response. (GRIN)
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But the 11th takes a conscious effort on a daily basis and so it's more
a part of my conscious life than any other step at this time.  As far 
as the part of the 12th that talks about carrying the message, this 
also comes naturally for me.  This is because, for me, if I don't 
share, my own serenity goes whacko and forces me to do it again - in 
one media or another.  I do it for myself, to keep me clean and sober. 
When it actually does help someone else, that's an amazing fringe 
benefit.
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I got a great joke to tell you, but will do so on the other echo.
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BY THE WAY, GOOD BELTANE, MILADY
--- TriToss (tm) Professional 11.0 - #66
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