M> On April 18, 1997, GOD WILLING, I will have ten years of sobriety -if
 > I make it that long without going totally insane.  My question, which
 > only GOD knows the answer to, is where the heck do I go from here?
 > .
Hi Matrika,
Let me commiserate with you. I'm out of work, have been unable to go
back to work since last August because of a recurring disability. I
don't have money to see a doctor or get my prescriptions refilled. I'm
late on my rent and have no way of paying a utility bill which is due
on the 18th. So there is a LOT of uncertainty in my life.
Now the good part:
1. I am still sober.
2. Whatever problems I have would be 4 or 5 times worse if I was
   drinking.
3. God only asks me to take life one day at a time.
4. Like you, I can look at my past and see that God has protected me so
   far, so that gives me some hope that He will continue to protect me.
So where the heck do we go from here?
We do the same thing we did yesterday. One day at a time. This is a time
to continue doing what we should do, and beyond that, to trust God that
He knows what He is doing.
My thoughts and prayers are with you, Matrika! I know it's frustrating
not seeing the path ahead. So just take it a step at a time.
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