Yesterday (June 22) was a bad one for me.

  During the night, I had a nightmare of Janice's death all over
again...8 weeks to the day.

  At least I was able to donate the CCTV reader to Arkansas Library for
The Blind...a reader I had purchased just 3 weeks before she died...so,
Janice could still give after her death.

  I've been emailing a Visiting Sysop who logs onto my BBS, and he is
going through similar things...he lost his wife 4 years ago, but "it
seems like yesterday". So, in a way, we're leaning on each other for
support.

  But, it still doesn't make it any easier. :(

  I'm going the National Singles Square Dance Convention in North Little
Rock over Labor Day Weekend (it's in a different city each year), and
while I know I'll see many old friends there, it'll be hard.

  Janice and I were so looking forward to attending...where the single
ladies would start schmoozing on me, and I'd interrupt "by the way,
would you like to meet my wife?", and Janice would wryly grin and wave.
 Sadly, that won't occur.

  And, while I could "theoretically shop for a relationship" there, I
think it's still way too early, and too dangerous to do so...as in a
way, I consider myself vulnerable...and still in a state of grief and
mourning.

Daryl

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