Matrika,  Thanks for caring.  I have never had a problem with alcohol, and 
did drugs as a teen, but stopped them alog time ago and it never bothered me. 
 As far as smoking, I tried on my own.  I am smoking now, but considering 
everything, I am going to put it on the back burner for now.
I started Prozac yesterday, was on something else, and I stopped working.  I 
know why I am depressed, and what I need to be happy, but I would have to 
make a big move (back to Illinois), family is there.  I think that's all it 
would take, but a big move is very stressful (did it 3 years ago) and I don't 
know if it would be the right thing for my husband and son.
We are though, discussing the possibility, and even though I don't consider 
myself overly religious, I believe things will happen in that direction if it 
is meant to be.  Again, thanks, and if you every want to talk about 
anything...(call) me!
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