On 27 Jun 96  23:36 William wrote . . .
 WK> I was wondering if it was normal at say a little over 2 years
 WK> to have a problem with anger.  I am had a real blowup the
 WK> other day and most of it has to do with things not moving as
 WK> fast as I would like them to.  I am sure I will have to live
 WK> with what I did for a long
If it makes you feel any better, we all have problems.  I believe
that just getting sober does not relieve us of our character
defects.  In fact, I'm not so sure I'll ever be rid of mine,
especially my penchant for intolerance and anger.
This does not mean that I don't pray daily and work the steps to
the best of my ability to be rid of these things...  Because it is
a constant battle for me to become patient, accepting and
understanding...  I have to learn these things.  The steps give us
the tools.
 WK> time.  I am getting tired of constently having to prove that I
 WK> am clean and plan on staying that way.  It seems that when
 WK> ever I do something that I have not done then there is someone
 WK> there in my family or friends that say "it looks like you want
 WK> to use again, are you?"  It seems no matter what I do or say I
 WK> can't seem to get it in there heads things are differant now.
Things may feel different for us but it may take some time for those
around us to get over all the havoc that we created for them.
Speaking of anger, when I first got sober I couldn't understand why
everyone yelled at me.  So I asked my sponsor.  He reminded me that
everyone was yelling at me because they had to yell at me for so
long just to get me to listen and it had become a learned behavior.
These things don't change over night...
It takes time to heal the wounds both in us and in those we
harmed...  It's our job I believe to just take care of our side of
the street.  The rest will follow if we are patient and willing.
This turned out longer than I expected.  
 Hugs --
Ed
... "Few things are harder to put up with than a good example." -- Twain
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