Hello moderators,,
i donno how to start this one, its sort of an apology sort of an explanation 
sort of a lot of things and mostly nothing.
i was participating in a couple of 'touchie feelie' echoes when things got 
out of hand and i managed to get my behind tanned, well they thought that 
that is what they were doing .. i withdrew when the foul mouths got motorised 
and even the female participant started to use vile language in netmail and 
some even in the public echo. i'm still not sure what happened.
so whats it got to do with os2hw .. thier was one thread that i was following 
and i sorta got 'carried away' i tried to extracate myself by making an 
excuse more for (actually to)  myself and about my technical also ran 
information. i've never been a good documenter, relying on my own notes and 
several very good secretaties i used to have. like a lot of things in my 
life, skills, abilities, posessions, position and authority ..  etc. loosing 
any one of these is pretty devestating, loosing all in the space of a week or 
so was crippling .. then thier was the illness and its damably slow 
coovery.
i do have an aquired brain injury, i am vuage at best and i do sometimes get 
really short with people, especailly when i start to remember who life used 
to be and how i didn't have to worry about what most of all of you and me 
took for granted .. now i am on a very restricted budget, i have to watch 
howmany fidonet polls i do an all the other kinda stuff that goes with my new 
position in life .. it is different and it has its own unique requirements, 
which at th moment i am not handling too well.
sorry for any offence i may have caused, please accept that it was not 
intended. also in futuer i will try to keep to the concrete facts and on 
those things that i am dead to rights certain about.
it was nice talking about processor philosophy, but that is not what os2hw is 
about. i wandered off topic and i started to get personal and all bent out of 
shape because of some severe external presures. this should never hanve 
happend, in the forst place and i will do my best to see that it does not 
happen again.
as i said, beofre, i live alone and my illness has made me even more aware of 
how isolated as a person i am, really. this is also the major contributing 
factor to the length of my posts .. well, sort off, i have allways been long 
winded in my writing .. as it is i write moe descriptively rather than 
objectively, english in not my forst language. this is also what now make it 
so difficult as i have effectively returned (in my minds eye, as my drs say) 
to a stage in my life where i was strugling with coming to terms with not 
just english but the whole concept of language as a means of communication.
anyway i've done it again .. overstayed my welcome, sorry. 
cheers and thank you for being so tolerant of me.
regards ... jonathan
EMail: jon@mpx.com.au
 ... i do all i can, with what i have, are you able to say the same ?
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