-> aw shucks maayam.....
Don't forget to scuff your toe in the dust and grin sheepishly. 
-> wahzup wahzup.  working on my welding technique.  building
-> recumbent bicycles and trikes.
Interesting. Have seen recumbent bikes but never a recumbent trike.
Pardon my ignorance (I've never owned a bike more advanced than a
standard tenspeed, and it sometimes made me miss my old one-speed
childhood Schwinn on which I could do outrageous tricks),
but...well...why recumbence? What's the advantage?
-> working on staying out of the old familiar victim mode regarding
-> the relationship with the greedy ferengi creep what owns this
-> company.
Excellent.
-> On a good day, that's what I think.
Hey, hold that thought.
-> Working out lots and lots still.  With these new bikes, it's real
-> easy to do long rides.  long, relaxing rides.  haven't done alot
Relaxing is good.
-> weather is down into the sixties here, had to break out all the
-> thermal gear.
 You one o' them there weather-wimps, boy??
We had a white and very cold Christmas here, and two members
of my circle fell and busted their asses on the ice getting to the Yule
ritual. I didn't fall on mine, but it sure turned blue from the goddamn
wind. I hate winter. Hate hate HATE. Can avoid most of the Seasonal
Affective Disorder stuff if I manage to be napping or someplace
windowless at dusk, the part of a winter day that really depresses
me...but I still spend an amazing amount of most winters turning up the
heat and drooling over seed catalogs.
-> got to hang out with an old time female friend who traded in
-> eleven years clean and sober for a four month run with ol man
-> heroin.
Arrggh. That hurts to see.
-> learnt alot from that one.  like, how part of the pull of drugs is
-> that you never have to ask for anything really personal.  and with
Well, money for me is terribly, brutally personal, and I sure had to ask
for a lot of it when drinking up all the grocery money.  I also had to
ask for a lot of affection and reassurance to fill the holes
the drunk/drugged/unexamined/spiritually bankrupt life was punching in
my gut, and a lot of slack to get me around consequences. But maybe we
mean something different by personal. Could you clarify a bit here?
-> with enough drugs, you can do whatever you need to get more drugs.
Yep. But I never managed to get enough to make it not hurt to do that
stuff. There just wasn't enough anesthetic on the planet for that.
-> wrenched my heart pretty good to see someone who used to be a good
-> representation of "lady with an edge" laying dope sick on the
-> sweated out bedcovers.
The disease of addiction: cunning, baffling, powerful, vicious, shitty,
nasty, destructive and (fortunately, I sometimes think) UGLY TO WATCH.
If it were prettier or if where I was living and who I was around had
looked a little less like something out of Tennessee Williams, I'd
probably have done it longer.
-> godshot.  big time.  for what seemed like "once, finally" I could
-> have my major surrogate drug of choice layed out in front of me
-> and just be with the urge instead of having to leave, or give in,
-> or resort to major negativity in order to not partake.  I was
-> Now, a few weeks later, I got a much better feeling about myself,
-> and a much higher opinion from them, from not acting out.  Actions
Outstanding.
-> speak louder and longer than words.  They know I'm a friend.  Not
-> just another program dude out cripple shooting.
                                 ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
Great phrase...gotta remember that.   We have some lounge lizards at the
yuppiest of the local Token Clubs that merit having that branded on
their foreheads, if not their dicks.
-> be a ten dollar minimum to ride.  Unless you are wearing Nike
-> shit, or work for Nike.  Then, it's fifty bucks just to sit in the
-> bike.  Or even have your picture taken next to a bike.
Eww.
-> But, being true to my family of origin, I'll
-> protect "DAD" and hurt myself.  Unless I can stay somewhat
-> centered.
Yup, those are two possible choices.
-> I really want to
-> give the crack heads from down the block twenty bucks apiece to do
-> what they do best to every Nike thing that gets put up in town.
-> But, that wouldn't be spiritual.
-> Or, actually, it would.

-> Hope you is doing well, or as well as can be.  I do miss seein yer
-> typeface.  You got some kinda style that I like.
You too, my friend.
-> hasta more later amiga.
Om mani padme catcha layta. 
--- WILDMAIL!/WC v4.11 
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