Retirement for an active officer is a hard thing to accept and accomplish, 
Our work is our life. Our families vecsame secondary to the job and suffered 
a "normal" social contacts  can be neglected.
I was guilty.
Bulding the bridges back to a family that feels their needs were neglected is 
a long term thing.
When kids were sked what they thought about my disability retirement , both 
said the same thing. "At least we get to see him now!".
But then again I was a workaholic and as any active and succesful officer 
will be, I made myself available to anyone at any time.
The "suits" bought me home injured more than once.
It took me three years before I would listen to a svanner and it is a relief 
to NOT have to have to carry a gun, or even keep one real close.
I was fortunate enough tobe able to live in a nice area
--- Maximus 3.01
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