On (03 Nov 95) Marge Clark wrote to Harriet Levy...
 MC> and what strikes me as the important thing here, gal, is that one has to
 MC> have the WILLINGNESS to explore the real hard stuff...
 MC> the stuff you don't  want to  look at, let alone  talk about.     
 Marge, I agree some what, however I will not justify anything that I 
 have said here or there.  I am just relating my experiences over the past
 few years.
  
 MC> seems to me that choosing to remain  
 MC> sponsorless gives  a wonderful option to 'hide out'
 Maybe I'll give you the history of my sponsors.
 The first one skipped out more or less upon more than one occasion
 when I set up a third step appointment with him.. so I fired him.
 The second got me through all my steps up to nine then tried to convert
 me to christianity, so I let him go. 
 The next was an utter disaster that I won't even go into...
 The next was Tom K. he is forever working with newcomers
 and never returns his calls when I leave a message..
 so I quit calling (useless eh?)
 The next person on my list is Joe K., he and I have a sorta working
 relationship. He gives me the encouragement to continue along my chosen
 path. As for step input I have Mike B. the guy I hang with at work.
 He gets me to explore the tough ones even if the relationship is
 not a formal one.
 I am not hiding out. I just shared with my Dad this weekend of
 what spiritual path I am on (Wicca.. yes Harriet except for 
 my brother and my Mom, I am out of the broom closet and I left
 some excellent text files with my Dad that will prolly be
 shared with my Mom)
 A tough choice, but in order to be true to myself I had to let
 my Dad know why he saw so many changes in me the last year
 or so.. even if he does not understand it.
 MC> by asking someone to sponsor you, you are...
 MC> signifying your willingness to continue the process?
 I have asked around and so far no one who has made the commitment
 to help me along the way in the past year or so has kept the commitment
 to be available.. and it seems to be the norm in L.A. AA/NA..
 It's a wonder that I never got disillusioned enough to drink again
 but for some reason I kept havin at it.. and stayed sober...
 Hugs
 Tim....
... Questions?  Comments?  Resentments?
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