> Good to hear from you again, How are you feeling? You
    Feeling better ..... last night I went out and stood over "Baby"s bush 
...... I'll never forget her!!  But, at least I'm not a basket case now when 
I think about her.
 > telling my Mom about you and Baby and she reminded me
 > that when I was
 > little we had friends with a ranch in the Bay area
 > near Santa Rosa, CA
 > and that I learned to ride by riding a quarter horse
 > named, "Babe"
 > which my Mom thought was the ideal horse for me to
 > ride because since I
 > was the baby of my family, My nickname was and still
 > is "The Babe"-I
 > just can't seem to get my family to realize I am 33
 > years old now.  But
    Hehehehehe ....... you'll ALWAYS be the baby of the family -- no matter 
HOW old you get .
 > this horse use to be used for barrel racing in rodeos
 > so sometimes Babe
 > would take me for a ride(around and around those
 > barrels we went-I sure
 > miss those days)But the family we knew sold the ranch
 > and the animals
 > after the girl who taught me to ride, Her father died
 > in an accident-He
 > was surf fishing at Bodega Bay and was caught in the
 > surf by what is
 > called sneaker waves and he was pulled under the water
 > and drowned in
 > his hip waders.  I think that I tried to forget
 > because I was fond of
 > the family and it was very sad what happened to their
 > lives---So I
    Oh nooooooo -- what a sad story .  BUT, what nice memories you have 
about Babe!!
 > thought I would tell you that there was a "Baby" once
 > in my life too,
 > only her name was "Babe" and although I don't know
 > what happened to her
 > she too was gentle and sweet dispositioned and I was
 > glad my mother
 > reminded me of her because I will now always treasure
 > those memories.
    Yes, do treasure those memories ...... each memory is a milestore in our 
lives.
 > JP>     We are about 4 miles west of LaBelle, FL or 35-40 miles east of
 > JP> FL ...... southern Florida.
 > I know I have time to travel, But I am scared, scared
 > that I won't see
 > my dreams come true.  I have had 2 bad marriages in my
 > life and because
 > of those controlling relations I never got to do with
 > my life what I
 > wanted to, and now I am divorced and my boyfriend
 > wants more of a
 > commitment but I afraid if I do, I will never see what
 > I want to see,
 > (like travel to Florida, or Cayman Islands, or
 > Cozumel), and I will
 > never get my schooling completed-I know I am being
 > selfish But I do
 > think it's my turn to accomplish my dreams first.
 > What do you think?
    I think you are absolutely right ..... and, consentrate on the future 
...... NOT on the past.  Just because you had 2 bad marriages doesn't mean 
that you can't find the right person in the future for you.
    You are NOT being selfish ...... take control of YOUR life now ..... feel 
good about YOURSELF!!  Then, and only then committ to someone else.
    Take care now ...... I wish you the best!!
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