Re - at least there is one group with length of sobriety in it, that 
should help you - can you imagine what it must have been like for Bill 
W?  Really he always had seniority and everyone always putting him - 
and Dr. Bob too, probably - up on a pedestal?  It must have been really
REALLY hard for him to open up and talk about it when he had a 
difficult time.  It must have been a heavy weight to carry to go first,
in my opinion.  I'm glad it wasn't me.
Even with just 8 years and having "seniority" in some of the circles I 
travel in, I sometimes get the feeling that I'm upposed to always be a 
power of example of how terrific life in sobriety is - but real life 
just isn't always like that in my experience.  It's hard to be real 
because people seem to expect anyone with more than five years to have 
it all together around here.  But that just isn't realistic.
Life on life's terms has many wonderful - MARVELOUS even - Thins in it 
today, but it also can have some real bummers on occasion too.
One of the more marvelous things is I went to a Pow-wow this weekend (I
am part Native American) and saw two friends from AA and I was able to 
gift one of them with a special anniversary medallion for Native 
Americans in Recovery while I was there.  Since this person has been a 
quiet, but powerful, power of example to me, it was a special pleasure 
to be able to do this. 
Am I making sense?  I might NOT be because I have agreed to speak at a 
group's anniversary meeting wednesday evening and I am projecting - 
making myself a bit nervous here.
--- TriToss (tm) Professional 1.0 - #130
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