On or about: 01-14-08  15:30, Allen Prunty did engage James Bradley
regarding, but not limited to: Back in the day...

 AP> Re: Back in the day...
 AP> By: James Bradley to Allen Prunty on Mon Jan 14 2008 03:58 am
 
 > I have never regained feeling in my surgical site, 
 > except for the neuroma th
 > fires errantly. It's not a smouldering pain, but like a darning needle is 
 > tugged on, inside my muscle fiber. Rather innocuous, but 
 > complicated in the 
 > side effects. Mentally, was the first affect I could no longer deny. I was 
 > busting bones, and slicing myself open due to stupidity, 
 > not to mention read
 > an article or technical document multiple times as if it was all new 
 > information. I think, because I couldn't differentiate between three pain 
 > sites, that my physician of the time thought I was full of Munchausen.

 AP> Has the pain remaned constant since the surgery?  Or has it 
 AP> lessened up a bit? 
 AP> Or, hopefully not, worsened?

The last decade and a half have been tenuous. I really have only started to
recognize my baseline. Post surgery, I took about ten days holiday, then
right back on the treadmill. Without really noticing, I was sliding all the
time. More and more, I was sacrificing personal issues, in order to get my
work done. By the time I couldn't ignore it, I had shingles by the age of
thirty-five. There's only one reason a person under fifty to get shingles,
(I forget the exact break point is. It might be even sixty.) and that is
stress. At least it was something the MD couldn't ignore, so I was off for
treatment outside his influence.

Six or seven years on prescribed narcotics taught me that my dislike for
narcotics had only solidified. Too bad for that I suppose, but just as well
says I. I stopped *that* modified treadmill in '03, and just as I was
settling down my flare ups, I was slammed by life this past year. The years
work wrapped up by the first week of October, and only for this past week
or so, have I felt like I reached an optimum lack-of-pain threshold.
(Waking at a 2-3. Movement causes 4-5.) I'm low on endurance for sure, but
falling asleep seems to be the best it has been since my operation. Short
answer: Likely feeling the best since '91, but I was pretty deluded between
then and now.

 AP> I've had a lot of pain in my recent surgical site... have had the pain
 AP> lessen then all of a sudden today WHOA it hurt like hell.

I hate to hear that! I'd suggest, try to identify exactly the cause or
source of pain. Learn about the adrenal system, and try not to let it
surprise you. Getting mad, can be VERY helpful. Try not to let it out on
innocent people. If you let people around you know about this, they might
be able to entertain you, instead of resist you. Talk straight to your MD,
and keep in mind, they still call it a *practice* for a reason. If they
start treating you with disdain, it might be time to find a new doc.


... James

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